Lemon Meringue Pie & A Pychotherapist

That time when you chatted me up and asked for my number, and then decided that our entire form of communication would be text messages. You are not Him.  After that meet-up we had, you failed to bring flowers and ask me on a real date and assumed I would hang out with you. You are not that It. That time we went for the hike..and you assumed I was your buddy. You feel you have the right to tell me your sexual thoughts and touch me, however you reside with someone, or pursue someone else, my dad always told me to make sure I was number one- You are not my first choice, because I was not yours.  If I was pre-occupied or heart broken, or torn..that, that guy would wait..He would stay and be there for me, and wait. You would be that friend with all the humanitarian qualities. You forgot to randomly call me and ask how my day was..because you thought of me in some random moment. that surprise you did, ..oh yeah..no that was me, not you. In my mind all the ideas of r...

The process of Elimination can be building blocks for problem solving, One can do the leg work on there own, or the universe will work in there favor when asked, and next thing you know shit is happening, and your freaking out, but if you think hard on why and are aware...You may just learn something.  My life for the last year has been a process of Elimination.  Some of my own doing and some events were the universe saying things need to change. Family: Sometimes family can be stressful, hurtful and toxic- Sometimes you need to take a break. I did in October, this was my choice- I felt ongoing stress and also if people do not enrich your life and support you and enhance who you are- then why have them there to bring you down all the time. Toxic Friendships- Everyone has them, the complainers that complain but never do anything about it, the constant boozers and pub goer's- I find it more interesting to go to events, walks other cities, book stores and secret finds of th...

Remember that show from the 80's? Very fun and funny! Here's a old clip ! It was suggested on Facebook that I go to the event, can't really remember from who, I actually did not know what it was, but hit the link. I received a email with a question are that was quite randy, and request for photo. I was chosen as a contestant. I headed down to the awesome little pub! To meet the two hosts and other contestants, there were two sets, 3 women and 3 men. The host immediately ordered us martinis and shots and was just awesome to be around! Jeremy and David who are in Media of sorts have really hit a niche for making this little pub a great place to be, several events happen, during the week and this new show will be a weekly event. Tons of prizes and the date night paid in full from the club. I had a blast sitting with the two other women and the 3 male contestants, we had a gorgeous 20 something shopaholic that follows the Kardashians      like a bi...

You ever have those dreams where its so real you can taste it, It never happened, but you wake up feeling like it did? It's like juicy kisses that last so long and you can't get enough..I remember Colors of a painting that are vibrant and just enter the canvas and next thing you know its something great...a simple day dream of being somewhere else, or just enjoying where you are. I have felt this lately. On a trail, snowy and whimsical at night, the snow glistens and looks blue..you feel like you are in a graphic artist movie because you cant believe how magical it all is, the cool air catches in your breath and you can feel a numb tingle to your cheeks. The snow on the trees make everything look like ice caves as you climb higher. Once I enter the warm cabin of cypress mountain, and order my coco..there is a hub and a vibe that is so magical you wish you could just go to your cabin, and have a hot tub and be with someone special for the night. .... Or the hot sand in your...

"My Poop Smells Like a Bed Of Roses" The statement above would be from the princess that lives in downtown Vancouver, believes that "Tiffany's Jewelers " means the alter, and thinks that public displays of affection are inappropriate. Not Me Never assume in life you will never shit your pants, or that what may appear a cute little toot, may in fact leave you in a embarrassing situation. I shit my pants last year- The first time ever, I think that was enough to last me a life time. There are many embarrassing moments- and the new book I am reading most certainly has left me laughing out loud to myself. A friend of mine, was called to go clean some police vehicles today..I won't say any names of coarse..lol and found that she had to go to the washroom so bad, that she couldn't hold it for the 30 minutes it would take to deal with the police car- The nice officer took her to the very small policing office, with cement floor and ceramic walls.  A...

Sunday Jan 26th: The TV has been off all day, Instead I have had the company of Mike Morrisette, Jack Johnson and Led Zeppelin. I have methodically packed, napped..ate..thought...and moved threw the motions of getting things done. The universe works in a funny wheel. Like the calm before the storm. Sometimes in the most stressful times you can find wellness. You can turn ciaos into a new adventure..and this is my new adventure for 2014 coming to a head. I had my tarot cards read, what the heck..there was a amazing man in them..wonder where he is? There was allot of focus on travel, move and career.. I see clearly on many levels, why the move of residence has to happen..what needs to happen next. I had hoped for a deeper connection, and realized maybe I found it in a new friend, female..and wise. Maybe the connection was laughter and silence on the water..the sun on my face..I really don't know. My new landlords are pretty amazing, they know everything..the fact that my...

I am just reviewing the benefits of being alone; You can lie to people about where you are, and do absolutely nothing. "Yeah sorry, can\t chat, I'm just over in the states" The person may say, "oh where about" hmm not sure on a road trip..don't know when Ill be back " Or, hey yeah working a double, not available. Do you have those days? where it doesn't matter who it is you just want to hear nothing? I have set my Voice Mail to this lengthy professional message, that you would not dare leave a message because its actually a emergency line, and if you do, it states that your message is recorded for quality purposes..and if you can get to the end of the message, you may actually hear I have another cell number and a home phone. Which unfortunately may be disconnected for sleeping purposes, or mindful reading or yoga in the living room..depends how I'm feeling that day- it just might be a dog day, this is where my full attention is on my...

"I should buy a boat, If you dream it , it will come" I met some pretty amazing people on Van Isle 360, some I will never forget, some that went as far as the states...Some friends I will have forever. That year was an exciting year. Looking at old picture's of the team. I have to say, I am grateful I was part of it. It has been two years, I looked into taking those sailing classes just to get out on a boat, but the truth is I know 3 exceptional Captains who have done more experience than any of those classes. So I called my favorite.  I would have to continue training physically, dedicate full weekends and one evening training. I would have to "fit In with the new group" Learn other positions, lingo...Vancouver Royal Yacht..Id also have to get better gear. This all starts in May, however much prep is required as well as gear and fees. First things first..upper strength, Outrigger starts in March, why not try something other than Dragon? I say Hell Ya.  So...

"Cha Cha Cha" Let me roll withcha.. That's me ! Last year getting all sexy to go out. As I sit here in the storm, look at invites..one incredible one from Ms SJ, my favorite Superhero...I will accept this one goal for 2014, Run4acause. Feeling inspired! I put up my best firecracker profile pic..and a change of hats..A change of hats is good for any girl..I have purple, yellow, plaid and even Mexican. This year I decided not to set any goals..they were set awhile back, and for me  the holidays just confirmed this even more! Some of my goals mid year were: 1) To Move...Well,  Day before Christmas Eve, I called the cops on a noise issue and my ceiling fell out. 2A) To only be with people or things that bring joy into your life..New Years I almost lost my little Pug Sushi Bear- She brings joy to me everyday. My amazing friends, like wow..talk about my own little family to gather around in hardship...amazing love from all sides. My goal in mid year was to spend mo...

Well the saga continues..from flowered shirts..Nice dinners and warm pubs, stuck in the cesspool of dating again. Again, against my word and went back on POF. This time, I wrote almost nothing in my profile, stating I was unsure if I would stay on the site.I put up a plain simple picture of me at work, with shades on. I was impressed there were over 100 messages, mostly city workers, one even decided to write his entire life in a page, about his role to the city and  being a good father. Ugh Not interested. I don't even have time to date, and when I make the time..Its seems disappointing. Lesson's learned you have to get out there and test the waters, not sure if I'm ready to actually go on a date after the last few, but nothing wrong with conversing. It is called experiencing life, and even thou I really want to share my life with someone..It clearly is just not in the cards right now. The good thing is I have booked myself for several events for Christmas, hired a p...

...Playing with Toddlers..That would be a good title for last night, how ever its my sons friends old band name. I booked The Railway Club, thinking it was low key and ok for a Monday, We got a beautiful 20yr something, singing soft indie music, that was down right depressing like she was out of some horrid breakup..beautiful voice..just not what these old school Cobalt, Funkyweinerbeans kids are used to. My son and his 2 hipster roommates appeared last night while I was getting ready, case of Milwaukee in hand. Felix Climaxx made her appearance of coarse.. In our family we have tattoos, and our own personal burlesque dancers for random occasion, comedians, artists, girls who shoot guns and play with boy toys..its all shits n giggles in our family. Felix is my young sons best friend, she is lovely, and came out to the little shit hole apartment for dress up with her beautiful green/blue hair to celebrate the festivities and give me my next dance class dates and pin up photo sho...

"Love Affairs Should Be Forever", That being said, " Love affairs should be forever" we learn from our mistakes in relationships from new ones. A man once said, "You want to talk about my 12 year failed marriage?" If indeed you have been married any time over 10 years, kudos to you bud for keeping it alive that long. I look back and find myself in past relationships bored, needed and codependent in the past- and once I lost everything, and threw most of it out and became self sufficient and realized I could do with less, and learned to like myself and love to be alone and enjoy friends and view my friendships loves from the outside and understand it!!!!   Well holy poop..It all makes sense. In the last 3 months I have learned from several different partnerships. " A New Marriage" This one is quite cute, where the man has his guy nights and she has her girl nights, their agenda is a series of cute dates and they eve...

“The severing of an established connection is exponentially more painful than the rejection of an attempted connection.”  ―  David Foster Wallace

I was raised with healthy food, meat potato's, veggies, good bread... all the things that the media says will kill you today. I have changed my food preference, but only because I had to. I want to be the new Yuppie  Girl!!! God dam it!! If I eat this crap, will I look like them? Be radiant and happy all the time?..hmmm..probably not. However I can have this behavior, easy peasy..all good things happen when you have a great attitude. I was running late today, my little lunch that I did have exploded in my  lunch kit-its between pay periods, I took a week off and feel like I am rubbing two bread sticks together because of not having my typical veggies for juicing, my fancy salads and wraps per day. I had frezzer defrosted turkey stew that had escaped threw out my bag. She entered the room, with radiant skin, and yogi clothing, linen carefree pants, a cool long sweater top thingy..little fabric shoes, I was thinking to myself, she must not do what I do, as I sat in my ca...