Feb 1, 2014

Colors & Textiles

You ever have those dreams where its so real you can taste it, It never happened, but you wake up feeling like it did? It's like juicy kisses that last so long and you can't get enough..I remember

Colors of a painting that are vibrant and just enter the canvas and next thing you know its something great...a simple day dream of being somewhere else, or just enjoying where you are. I have felt this lately. On a trail, snowy and whimsical at night, the snow glistens and looks blue..you feel like you are in a graphic artist movie because you cant believe how magical it all is, the cool air catches in your breath and you can feel a numb tingle to your cheeks. The snow on the trees make everything look like ice caves as you climb higher.
Once I enter the warm cabin of cypress mountain, and order my coco..there is a hub and a vibe that is so magical you wish you could just go to your cabin, and have a hot tub and be with someone special for the night.

.... Or the hot sand in your toes, you may only be at wreak beach, or white rock, with all the locals but the day is so hot you can envision some tropical island with delicious food and drinks..fresh mango on sticks...meeting foreign people that are happy and poor but seem so incredibly rich to you because they are here and you are not.

Being on the water , feeling the sun, and as you gently put your fingers in the cool water it feels like you want to dive in even thou it is cold,  later you touch your lips and taste salt. all you hear is the wind and the gently lap of ocean ..as you look out..everything seems possible.

Gently putting your paddle into the water and hearing the gently up and down as your paddle enters..and your team member says...Hoe...Hum...The rhythm of a team on gentle water is like....Om

The feeling of soft skin at night...the coolness of your foot hanging off the bed..this is a moment of awesomeness, as such, just as the writer wrote that amazing book, I feel it now.

Change can be incredible. My little place of 4 years, brought me a sustainable garden every year that gave me produce, gave me closeness to rich culture off of main street, interesting musicians and venues.
work was easy ..the fast paced city gave me reason to write in all night cafes with delicious pastry's or art to gaze upon. But in reality- I felt just alone here as I would anywhere.

The noise above left earplugs as my mentor at night, I had the constant reason of why I could not feel a cool breeze through my window at night..the sirens, the city rats..

I will spend countless hours creating a home in my new space..the quiet will leave me ready to paint and write.. I see textures and colors when I think about my new space and who will come visit me in it, friends to watch movies, friends to cook..or most times I will just enjoy the quiet. The convenience will allow me to leave my companion ( Sushi & Martain) with the resident upstairs..I may actually travel. The office will give me room to actually grow a business and I see a tornado of ideas. I do know my goals and budget will have to be different, and I am OK with that. each box I re-open that I have packed will be split in two- this will stay and this will go...
and slowly I will have released myself from excess baggage.

I think in colors and textiles and quite often a song or a painting will effect me..and later it will have a feeling of memory. This is very much the same with people..I once took a picture of a black and white photo...of two body's after sex..the only thing in the photo was a tattoo, and a naked breast- the side shape of two bodies that had just made love, some glisten that showed passion...This is not a picture so much anymore , but a feeling.
the only thing with color was the tattoo, everything else had been changed to black and white..it was a feeling of what this meant.

I have had many thoughts of how I view things recently with much self examination...
what makes me feel this way and why..it is almost a self study.
Recently between all my moving stress..someone close to me had a life changing experience..
I felt pain immediately. I realized that all my stress was completely gone..my worry was all gone, my love and compassion was completely for this person at this moment and all I wanted to do was fix it.
This is how I work....I really don't know why I work this way...but I do.

GVix signing off
Thinking in blocks of color...

Jan 29, 2014

My Poop Smells Like a Bed Of Roses..

"My Poop Smells Like a Bed Of Roses"

The statement above would be from the princess that lives in downtown Vancouver, believes that "Tiffany's Jewelers " means the alter, and thinks that public displays of affection are inappropriate.

Not Me

Never assume in life you will never shit your pants, or that what may appear a cute little toot, may in fact leave you in a embarrassing situation. I shit my pants last year- The first time ever, I think that was enough to last me a life time. There are many embarrassing moments- and the new book I am reading most certainly has left me laughing out loud to myself.

A friend of mine, was called to go clean some police vehicles today..I won't say any names of coarse..lol
and found that she had to go to the washroom so bad, that she couldn't hold it for the 30 minutes it would take to deal with the police car- The nice officer took her to the very small policing office, with cement floor and ceramic walls.  After going "Number One" in a room that sounded like the hills you shout "Ricula" from,
She thought, she would let out a little toot, like .."puff" instead it was the loud magic dragon fart.
Horrified, with a nervous giggle and quite scared to leave the bathroom...she quietly opened the door...
to see..... 5 police officers starring at the door.

Never assume things in life, don't assume money will be available- unless you've put in the time and actually see it in the bank. Don't assume that certain someone likes you, unless actions are made clear..Don't assume work hours will come threw for you, when your title clearly is labelled as casual, but they promise full time hours. Promises are broken all the time.

It is great to think positive, you always should, but there comes a time when you have to really have that stability of what is coming and going in your life I think. It's like sales..you can make sales as a sales person, however the economy may crash- then what? It's about thinking outside the box and creating something concrete for yourself-

You can also sell yourself as a great "Package" but then what would the challenge be? You shouldn't have to sell yourself to anyone, in work or relationships. In work we list the qualifications- the employer can hire you based on those qualifications, or he can choose to ask questions about life skills and transferable information- and make a decision based on that- this is why I have had many careers in my life, I truly feel I can learn anything. I went from dental assistant to make up artist to para-legal to corporate sales to top bartender to mental health...blah blah blah...you should be in the place that serves you well at that moment in your life. Each of my careers at the time, served me well, and gave me flexibility to raise my kids.

In relationships, you can see the person as having a grand career, ownership of things, what seems to be stability, but this does not mean that person is the person for you- your person could be the car salesman down the road- fuck if I'll ever date a car salesman, just saying. No offence, I have my own reasons. The person that is right for you, brings you joy when you are with them, they don't want to change a single thing- they like how you are, just as is.

Last year work came pretty easy..things moved along..and I just went with it. In Work, relationships , almost everything..

Some people say..just go with the flow and roll with it...Maybe that is why I feel temporarily psychotic lately..I am not a go with the flow , person...I am a leader and creator of things. Creator of problem solving, creator of the creative arts, creator of new passion, creator of adventure..This is why I started Prospect5- however....
I didn't think it through again...I went with the flow, and guess what? It came to a dead stop and now needs to be completely re-vamped into concise, proper management.

So I have a team, and it wont be on the assumption I can do it all- my partner will do half, and we will look at the results as evidence of nay or ya, and make factual precise decisions on how to improve, revamp or increase revenues. Simple right? Not really.nothing is easy in life.

There is no guarantee in life or where it will lead you. You can accomplish all the things you need to do to have a nice retirement and then realize you missed out on life itself. We don't have proper retirement or pension plans anymore- the best plans are the ones you create for yourself.

So there you have it folks, a little loud fart, changed the perspective of the day..go figure.
GVix SigningOff

Jan 27, 2014

Wellness...It's A Funny Thing

Sunday Jan 26th:
The TV has been off all day, Instead I have had the company of Mike Morrisette, Jack Johnson and Led Zeppelin. I have methodically packed, napped..ate..thought...and moved threw the motions of getting things done. The universe works in a funny wheel. Like the calm before the storm.

Sometimes in the most stressful times you can find wellness. You can turn ciaos into a new adventure..and this is my new adventure for 2014 coming to a head.

I had my tarot cards read, what the heck..there was a amazing man in them..wonder where he is?
There was allot of focus on travel, move and career..

I see clearly on many levels, why the move of residence has to happen..what needs to happen next. I had hoped for a deeper connection, and realized maybe I found it in a new friend, female..and wise.
Maybe the connection was laughter and silence on the water..the sun on my face..I really don't know.

My new landlords are pretty amazing, they know everything..the fact that my ceiling fell out, the furnace , hot water tank, dog getting sick..and most importantly my budget- they reduced the rent, gave me a break.
We have met now about 3 times, and I have to say a relationship is developing which I think is very important for tenants. Its almost like I have angels watching over me. The husband owns a company and was quite impressed with my Linked In profile and has offered me some new career opportunities this year. I explained Travel is on the agenda- My personal Journey- Like two of my very dear friends, one in Thailand and one on root to Cabo, Africa then Costa Rico to reside for the summer in there home- they may now have a second spot in Cabo- which means I may be able to visit:)

I had the worst sleep, its like super power-
I packed till about 11pm, then I went to bed and I was dreaming about this garden I creating,  it was very detailed..anyway I woke up at 430am to Sushi (my dog) being sick.
After I calmed the pug down- I could not go back to bed. So I got up and did some meditation and yoga for the first time ever in my disheveled home, made food and got called to work at 7am.
So the day begins in a haze..

Contracts and negotiations went well on all levels concerns with money and finally A NEW BED! I am so excited to have a new bed!!!
Having to move after being off work for a month with no income is taxing, but it all worked out with negotiations today and it also looks like some small Reno's will be done on the new place to-

So I am having positive thoughts about this move. The quietness of the distance..I cant really say my life is in Vancouver..life is where you make it. It is funny what you put into the universe. I remember the weekend after my dad died. I went to the place I always go. White rock at the far corner where his parents had a trailer..I watched the ocean come in and out for a few hours..wrote a message in the sand.
For the 25 years from the time I moved back, I said I would live there. The scary part is I almost just did..
I am in the middle..

Timing is everything..and I think sometimes the universe forces you to do things. I can say I am stressed or I can say, its all coming together-Some very interesting things coming into play..I see domestic avenues, which I miss and adventurous times ahead as well.

 Libra Love Horoscope
Sexual needs are just one of the life issues emphasized for you at this time. Sex, power, and money are all compelling aphrodisiacs. Learning what makes others tick turns you on. Your orientation at this time is about getting to the bottom of issues and starting over if you need to in your relationships.

Interesting horoscope, Sexual needs..lol yeah that's been kind of dead for me that's for sure..power? not understanding the power part at all.  Starting over in many relationships..work , friends..family..maybe other ones too.

I have not written in awhile..I have been pretty consumed.
However I had sometime tonight to say screw it, I'm sitting.
GVix Signing off
Here's to the future