As I mentioned before, your checklist of the ideal man- should be a mirror image of yourself. If not, you are not a team player and really are in the pool of "Lucky"
If you are on welfare sitting on your ass, what on earth gives you entitlement to a hard working man? See what I'm getting at here?
I was left and cheated on 3 times. I am not saying I was not part of the reason, I am sure in a man’s perspective I was.
Sex for me is emotional, so I can never have one night stands, I am not a easy lay.. I have to feel something and feel I am of worth and value. I am gullible, and sometimes confuse real feelings with lust, and am left with being the object of desire, then rather the quality person to acquire.
If there are periods of stress in work, home life or the relationship, I will retreat because I have fear. I remember my last 3 year relationship, and him telling me there was not enough sex. This had to do with, leaving work-uprooting my little dog, duffel bag at 11pm and going to his rat hole of a basement, and then I was supposed to be all sexy and caring? After chasing a crazy man trying to wipe his ass all night in a group home? I compromised allot for this man, and I did not feel it was equal..the relationship dwindled and died.
It is important to talk. For me communication is key, and if I really love you , most times my stress can be taken away very quickly. Some times I bring shit home, I mean who doesn't? laughter is a quick cure, as well as funny and silly. I've realized recently, this requires a mature real man..someone who has already gone threw kids, work..marriage.. someone who views life now as ...every day counts. The key is to find this, but also find someone youthful in appearance health and stamina..whew..it is slim pickings!
Sometimes just not talking at all, is good, and if you can do this and enjoy the presence of someone knowing you don't have to say anything at all-that is the slice of life.
I have always been in love with the idea of love, so working on adventures and things attract me. I love learning new things, so intelligent men are always more attractive to me than looks. I have to say I still have abandonment issues, trust issues and insecurities- but I will say this, It has taken me two years to work on it and I have allot to give to the right person, it is now a question of if they are right for me.
I am constantly educating myself and trying new things, I would hope that my next partner in life would cherish that I am unique in this regard. I am the best critic of myself and sometimes I criticise myself when I should not. Other times I am over confident- this is called, balance. My new partner will also be continually growing.