It was really bothering me this year that I have not set out on my quest I originally intended to do when I did my vision boards in 2011. My quest was to do some sort of work abroad... GVixen is about to go International.
I had yet another hard year and gave up my drive for drama. I fell in love a few times, worked in different areas of my field. Stressed about my kids and family and finance..and it all led to the same thing. Still thinking about stress and drama and crap.
I started to ask people in my work field about ways to make this a reality. Teaching abroad was something I knew Id always do- but thought it would take much more years of school to get there, not so. I will write a different post on my Project China. I will be leaving hopefully by either June or August. My life here in Vancouver will be for sale, and my new one will begin.
This was a 4 day weekend for me, I did work here and there, but along the way I had very harmonious conversation, huge support and learned many new things this weekend.
The start of my weekend was Thursday-It was a very hard day and I was very very tired. If you are a avid reader you will know I work for 4 unions and have a broad group of co-workers. One this day when I thought I was ready to pull my hair out from a series of unsupported text messages from family, a raging period, and a migraine...I walked into a lounge.
The first word I heard was Placenta Sausage. When you are not feeling well this can be visualized in a few different scenarios, not good I might add. I said, "What are you talking about?" my gawd!
The visions of overgrown grey massive bush hair and over tanned wrinkled vagina, certainly did not depict my vagina-but I posted it anyway, cause that's pretty much how I felt, and pretty dam funny if you ask me.
The other female was banging her fist on the table laughing so hard she was snorting and the man in the room sat silently off to the side. The only male decided, he finally would add into the humor and tell a joke, but first he said"okay this may be offensive but three vampires come home, to discuss their meals", one vampire said, "I went to the blood bank", the other vampire says, "I got two babies in the back", the last vampire says-"I decided on a mellow evening and am just having tea", as he pulls the bloody white string out of the hot water in the cup.
I was laughing, and grossed out- I forgot quickly my issues and found it rather odd they were all talking about blood n guts and there I was on possibly the worse period known to man. Anyway I goggled it and found this stream of chat-GROSS- I am sorry, but do plants seek humans in the wild for blood? This picture is wrong here.
Feeding blood to plants?
So after a few months of using my cup, I decided that flushing the blood down the toilet is a bit of a waste and I'm going to try fertilizing my plants with it. Are you supposed to dilute the blood before you give it to the plants? Will it make my herbs more nutritious if I feed them blood (all that iron...)? Is it even ok to give blood to a plant you're going to eat?
plants are so powerful! they can even break down pollution!
something as wonderfully nutrient-rich as blood ought to be just fine, not to mention incredibly nourishing for your plants.
in cunt: a declaration of independence, inga muscio talks about a friend who rinses out her menstrual sponge and gives the resulting "blood tea" to her plants.
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Awesome fertilizer, but you have to dilute it atleast 10:1 so you don't burn the plants, but well diluted plants do seem to like it.
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Menstrual blood will burn plants? Did I misinterpret that?
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I interpreted it as the blood is too concentrated for the plant, but your comment made me picture someone pouring blood straight from their cup onto the plant and the plant bursting into flames. Thanks for making me giggle today : D. Actually, blood setting stuff on fire might explain why some females flip out if they even think about touching their own menstrual fluids.
This was a great time of laughter to the end of my day.
The second day I watched movies and slept then did a graveyard shift. I had a couple try to persuade me into having sex after my 6 month dry period via text messages. That was entertaining, and soo not happening.
The hoopla of the weekend was a friends birthday, this was supposed to be paintball, spa and dinner n drinks- I went with my friend to 3Vets! A amazing store that sells fatigues. We ate a huge Da Dutch breakfast and went shopping. The paintball fell through, not enough people. I was glad actually. The dinner and massive drinking did occur.
During the massive drinking a Palm Reader came to the event.
He was jolly and happy, a Olympian he said. He said he did read palms, but he had to be drunk to do it??
He said it was too much for his system and had to be open to receive, whatever the fuck that meant.
All I knew is I needed to drive and had the water intake and it was time to go.
He grabbed my hand and paused and shook his head several times, I said "what am I going to die?"
It is not good when someone does that, he said..."You have allot of Judgement in your life, and it doesn't matter what you do you will never be good enough"
I blinked a few times, because I really was going threw some huge issues that I try not to talk about currently.
He said, "You will never be good enough. So be who you are." "You have not thought with your center."
"You are beautiful and smart and give allot to this world, you are going on a grand journey".
"I would like you to stop in to India to my ashrome."
I sat in silence, not saying a word..because the truth was I was about to cry.
"Even a death cannot bring you all together-you have great wisdom and you will learn much more along the way"
He said, "soon you will teach in a much broader audience". "You will lose everything, but gain everything."
This was a man I never met, and no one at the table could have told him anything about me because my friend had not even seen him for quite some time.
It was very scary and I felt compelled to leave immediately.
He then said, "Do not be scared anymore, I know you feel completely alone but you are so very much loved from people you do not even know."
"Your mind is telling you you are not good enough from what you have been through, but you are far more than good enough. Accept it and start thinking from the core."
I was blown away, and really did have to leave. When you go through stuff...in the end you only want to hear, you are OK and good enough.
So its decided we are making a short detour to India before China!:)
My Uncle and I met at the Main and had great food n drink, he was on a flight out to South East Asia and chatted with me about his travels a bit ,enlightening me with tales from his previous trips. He has a fail proof bedbug tent that he sets up on top of any bed that he stays in. In China, the white man is the lower breed and starring intently at a person is apparently aloud.
In India if there are 4 brothers the first will go into a trade, the second collage, the third a goat, the forth will have his fingers mutated and will be a professional beggar-apparently they are very serious when they tell you thee types of tales.
I found out, that on my dads side, all the kids suffer from sever depression and my uncle expanded how this may be a gap in the family origin- he also explained how he deals with it, and his purpose to move forward.
He explained that almost all of his brothers and sister were not even aware, and the solitude and clutter in ones life is a example-him included and he is just trying now to improve. I think my uncle was closest to my dad, and the loss of the their dad was a mirror image of what is happening in our family in some degrees.
My uncle has never married and I finally asked the long over due question, are you a Asexual or gay..My uncle just laughed his head off and said hes had plenty a pleasure of women in other countries and in life in general but prefers a solitary life style.
My uncle was known as the world traveler for years, a solitude man studying archaeology, the forest and everything else that has to do with nature. I believe he is a genius.
We asked the table next to use to take a picture, and low and behold these were people that were also flying out to Nepal, and just so happens knew of my uncle and could practically name his whole neighborhood in his previous town. We stayed a bit longer then, for my uncle to catch up a bit.
My uncle gave me valuable tips about the huge journey I would take, and then looked down and said he really thought my sister would be the next world traveler and used to send books.
I said, she will in good time, I don't think its over for her calling just yet.
We then talked a little about old family origin, he was astonished when I showed a picture of a long lost cousin in Alberta that looked exactly like my sister, in fact he almost shit his pants. My uncle hopes that all this will come together soon. I have to say I am starting a new relationship with my Uncle and the only real relationship my uncle has had, is with the second eldest sister who he loves very much and sees as a worldly person. Maybe somewhere on my travels I can fly my sister out. who knows.
My visit was very touching and loving and I saw the voice in my dad, that he failed to use at times.
The people next to use were kind of honored to speak with my Uncle as I think his work may be a little well known. As far away as my uncle is, he seems to have a concern for my mom, and had hoped he could see her-This was very touching, as my fathers side was never really that close to my mom, he said he did some family albums and could I please apologize to my mom for using a prior name. I said yes, of coarse-but that was her life then. not now.
The end of my evening was supposed to end with a interview of a arising punk star in Vancouver, although I have a feeling he has been working for years, story will come your way eventually on Vancouver Voice
The punk and I moved it to tomorrow. tea for two-I hope its sunny. If it isn't it probably will be anyway, because every time I talk to the man I feel sunshine.:) His latest on Sound Cloud Below.
GVixen Signing off on a great 4 day weekend