Lemon Meringue Pie & A Pychotherapist

Do you ever look back on things you said and realize to your horror you were a total hypocrite? I have been doing allot of reading, including my past blog posts. In one of dating posts, I stated I hated emails and texts..and yet in times of pure fear that's all I do. Hypocritical! I tell one of my friends the best advise of how to deal with fears and work situations, and I cant dish out my own advice for myself. This is always the case! You give amazing advice, but don't follow your own word! I really need to take my own advice on a few things, cause as far as I know, people really value my ear, advice and the value of my company when they are going threw a hard time, I guess this is why my career is helping people. Everything I told myself not to do, I did. I guess that's what happens when you fall in love, you go blind. My Guru friend says that after 6 months of being with someone, you are actually after that just living with images..not really the person. To reco...

The beads that monks, Buddha's, Yogi's.. wear around their neck's and hand's, symbolize 108 beads, a perfect three-digit multiple of three, it's components adding up to nine. A number representing supreme balance, in Eastern cultures. In Western time's, these bead's often represent 108 beads of gratitude. You are to touch each bead and stat what you are thankful for right now, and all good things will happen. Some time ago I went to see, Nithyananda, a Monk/Yogi, (try pronouncing that name.) Nithyananada believed that every thought a person had was a thought of the past, re inventing itself over and over..So all the thought's a person has are of the past, pain, worry stress...heartache were actually hindering your future thought's. In order to have a full life , wonderful life filled with all the wealth, love and nurturing and adventure, you must re-program your way of life, and the way you think. Nithyananda still applied the same princ...

101 Nights... I am not going to disclose how I obtained the hidden name Scheherazade.. A tale of a King who beheaded a 1000 wife's, and then was given Scheherazade. Scheherazade thought of a brillent plan; to keep herself alive, she would tell a tale, and at the end of each night left the tale hanging..to yet the next night..she is known for her 101 tales of mystery, elicit sex and tales of adventure. I use the name, spelled dif ferently in some of my created emails, and use this also as a signature. I feel my life is about to take a grand turn, professionally and romantically.. physically and mentally, and thus I will give you 101 Nights.. I cannot promise the tales of Scheherazade, but I can promise this, I may make you laugh, and ponder some of my absurd opinion's on topics, and my personal take on life in general. So here we are on July 18Th Day one: Recently, I have had some sorrow, the turning point for me in the last little while, was a recognition of where I wish to be ...

I came across a interesting article, that I have recently applied to stress at work and relationships-Indifference. I did not paste the entire article, just a tidbit, to see what comments I would receive, seeing as some of my followers are dealing with the same issues. Sometimes when indifference hits you were it matters you have to take a second look. Indifference can work very well in regards to fighting, to peoples behavior that is inappropriate(like some of my folks I work with) But when it hits you in the heart, it can be almost like abuse. Recently I have met a friend such as this, I have to wonder if the person is actually as smart as I am, or just a Asshole. I have known to be a asshole many times, at least I'm not afraid to admit it. Maybe I am just impatient, I expect my answers to fast, there are 3 different situations in my life, where answers are simply un-met. For a Libra/Virgo, this might as well be like finding one fabulous shoe for a night out and missi...

Church Lady Say's " Now is that proper talk?" Head Colds and Boot-camp and changing your life for the better, can sometimes suck for the first month. My blog"Dysfunctional Journal didn't go over with the "Boyfriend" so I archived it for a bit. I don't blame him. I am quite the girlie girl, with sweetness and giggles when I am with him. Trash Talk is not very becoming in a lady, but sure makes great conversation doesn't it!..lol I am actually the most caring giving person you could ever meet, I think of you and the world before myself, and then beat myself up because I am so sad sometimes..probably due to exhaustion and not knowing how to balance enjoying life and work. If you dont hear from me all day, it is one of two things: I am at work, I am ignoring you. Welcome to the world of serving others..my choice..no one else's. The last few years I actually have enjoyed life in little bits, quite a bit compared to the rest of...

Women's Stuff.. I don't know about you guys, but I am kind of in denial that I am actually in my 40's. Apparently in your 40's new things happen. First off, when you are in a committed relationship in today's world after you have actually establish that you are, medical clearance is required to have safe sex. I mean even his junk has to be examined..you cant go by"if it tastes like dairy" to think its safe. At 40, mammograms are introduced, thyroids are checked, hormonal tests have to be done, these are all tests to wonder why your girlfriend is going insane. Early menopause is now the talk of the town, thank god that was ruled out for me. Apparently at 40 your vaginal walls get thin, yeast infections and bladder infections occur more frequently, instead of facials, you will be giving your vagina a facial of olive oil and yogurt, or the new age"estrogen cream" Fun stuff, but not so fun in your panties, after a few days of use you feel like you ha...

Hi! Hope you are all well and rested after New Years! I had 4 days off, how wonderful! I went to Whistler I slept, and I got rid of all my shit. Speaking of shit..Every year people make New years Resolutions.. I know I have, and guess what? most times they don't work. I do one thing every year, I make Vision Boards, and last night I did all four!! They really work! I started them a few years ago, and I always have one thing on the board that arrives in the time period I place it as such. You can also write yourself a big fat cheque and stick it to the ceiling on your room. It has been a ruff 24hrs, I am detoxing from all the crap in my body, I don't know how people do it, the detox, I feel like crap despite my fabulous energy levels-I drank the organic lemon, maple syrup and Cayenne pepper all day-The drink tastes OK, once...but you are required to have 6-8 glasses a day! The last 4 months have been take out food, and treats, alcohol coffee and cigs...

People come into your life for a Reason, Season or a Lifetime when you know which one it is you will know what to do for that person when someone is in your life for a Reason it is usually to meet a need you have expressed They have to come to assist that need, subconsciously, or expressed and to provide you with guidance and support.To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They are there for that Reason you need them to be Then without any wrong doing or inconvenient time, The person will do something or say something to end the relationship Sometimes they walk away, they die.. sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand for what you feel is real What we must realize is our need has been met, our desire fulfilled the work is done and we must move on. If it were for a Lifetime... we would not be having the conversation of Reason... Sometimes people come into your life for a Season, because your turn has come to grow...

Just a thought..VPD, why not? I am a Community Service Provider in Mental Disabilities. So I have seen some bizarre and odd experiences to say the least. Most of my work is in high behaviors. I am a female, minority. I have way to many certificates and physical training within the non violent crisis area, so why not, pay is good-part of a team..I get to go target shooting. Something I loved with my dad, at the range. So here I go starting, the probably 1 year process. So I researched more physical training, like I did with corrections. I decided I might as well take advantage of my company's corporate rates on Steve Nash, YYoga and Jazzercise. I went to the location of Steve Nash and they did "The Assessment" "The Assessment consists of standing on a machine with hardly any cloths on that reads your mind and your body. We will call this machine DICK. Dick says I am extremely dehydrated, so dehydrated I might as well be a lizard. I am in a good weight frame for athlet...

A man has been married for over 25 years, he has provided for his family, he is tired and worn and wonders where his life and dreams have gone..After work he decides to visit his Italian friend who owns the Bistro down the street, for perhaps...a cigar and a bourbon to contemplate life as he closes up shop. "She is dead I tell you!" he says to his friend..no no , mi sure..you simple have to grab her by the waist look into to her eyes...and dance... The man of 25 years marriage yells, you are crazy, why would I do something as ridiculous as that?She will just push me away and go back to her god dam cleaning or whatever she does..she scurries around all the time like avoiding me" I should just leave, I know I will leave her my last 300 bucks and be done with it, oh fuck my life to hell! The Italian friend says, now you are really about the bullshit shit my friend..there is still time my friend, tomorrow you will take my best recipe you will cook for her for once in your l...

GVixen has been dating for a bit, and its usually around the 2 month mark, that I either sabotage the relationship, or just plain run. I have been reading a book by two ladies called The Rules, I started the bock a little late, so I broke some of the rules..lol, my goal was to see if a 1980's book with 1950's frame of mind still applies to the dating world here in 2010. The ladies have some very good points-I have been following most of the rules with my current relationship and the book seems to ring true, however there are also some points that the ladies stat, if he does this....He's really not that into you. This has gotten me off kilter a little, as my guy has done some of these things..I dare not tell however.When I am done the book I will post a full detailed account, It really is quite interesting and its all based on The One, The big catch..and talks about all the little ones in between. So far the relationship of almost 3 months is going good! I have vertically ...