Lemon Meringue Pie & A Pychotherapist

You have to be willing to lose everything to gain yourself. So..I will lose everything. Its not easy. Its not Drama. Its Re-birth. These are just materialistic things, and although it seems drastic. It is not. Removing it from my actual lodgings is a pain in the ass, waiting for it to be taken is also painstaking. I will be almost a backpacker. For one year. It is a choice. It is a wise choice. When I start over, it will be fresh. I have lost some of the most important things in my life from 2012 to 2014, this current matter is no big deal. I am following the footsteps of some very important people in my life. My closest friend in the lower main has led a great example on wellness fitness and health. My other friend in the US instills that happiness is still possible no matter what. My Terrace BBF instills Family values and care. With these 3 people in my life including my sons and my mother ( the comical creative goddess) I can scrape away all that I thought was important ...

After all my years of writing on dating in Vancouver, The dating site that is a eye sore and stays the same-POF- Plenty of Fuckers.  There will be no more updates in 2015 from this blogger in regards to POF. Not at least for 6 months anyway. I have continuously stayed on the horrible site all through my past two short lived relationships. I was writing some drafts, which I have promptly deleted. I became slightly more active on the site the last week due to being home sick with boredom. Superbowl week in the states, was a week of full physical training prior to the event, and then I left the states with a horrible sinus cold. This week another full training almost every day, home, running and gym, I find out the cold is in my chest. My trainer has left for South Carolina, and I feel lost with out her, I can't do what I was doing anyway with being sick, but even walking her dog would suffice because she lives quite close to where I live. During the past two weeks, I ...

It was a long battle with Sushi Gurl..and now she sleeps. RIP SUSHI GOLD Sushi was from a litter of 15, she didn't play like the others, in fact she just sat there. I think sushi was a quiet soul for most of her life. Sushi had terminal cancer which started in her tail. It was 2 years of surgeries and medications. Last year she developed a tumor the size of a golf ball, this split open in the middle of the night, we had to have her tail removed. The two years, she received a new bill on life and for the most part she went everywhere with me, Calgary, Terrace, Kamloops, Kelowna. I went to the vet to have her put down with a Dear friend who offered to assist me, I had not seen her for 20 years, After Sushi's tail removal her health went spiraling down, My friend felt Sushi had been threw enough and felt that because she was already diagnosed with cancer really, why should we be paying for more tests. Louise was right. However my vet refused to put her down,...

Here's a newsflash, Facebook is not real. It's for you to reconnect with family, friends, old high school mates and to report your live journal, sure if you want to occasionally. Facebook is the cause of most breakups, friendships and work relationships of today. It s hacked and prodded and looked into. It is simple put, absolute bullshit. However it is a good media tool, eye grabber, even planner and all out hilarious if you use it wisely. You have the strait posts which are the do gooders of what they have achieved and the latest status on there daily goals. You have the porn queens of Canada, potty mouths and the latest completions or awareness campaigns. Is your Facebook you- no it is not, you are the person that is typing the shit on there for sure, but this does not define who you are. When I go to work, I serve others and hold a professionalism of privacy and law abiding acts. When I work with children I teach and broaden there minds to be able to achieve anything ...

All the things I can’t , you can't or anyone else can't say aloud.  • Una persona • Your dick stunk last time I sucked it. So I stopped. • Thank you so, so much for allowing me to take 4 days off to help my family in crisis and then     decided to bring me in for a discipline meeting. I received you emails, phone calls and finally the   letter of dismissal.Quite frankly I do not have the time or energy to respond to your futile               attempts to bullying me. I hope you enjoyed your 4 month stay in France, with your fat ass,           your other managers have not had a vacation in 4 years and your clients do not have 1st quality equipment or necessities. I watch how you yell and scream to employees in front of staff and make well rounded people become bitter. Therefore  I am unavailable to your association, in the form of even a reply. maybe it has something to do with quality and ...

So its now February 2015 and I can't not think about the big 14. Recently Single, or maybe I always was in my subconscious mind. After 40, as I have said many times in my blogs, you tend to look at the whole picture. Well this year it was like I was taking a re-evaluation of my life, rather than looking specifically at someone I would date. In fact I had no desire to even date. However when you are thrown into a dating situation, sometimes you look at the horizon with that person and sometimes you look at yourself- recently mine was both. I asked some very important questions to myself." Do I have time for this? No", "Do I want to do my makeup and get all gussied up?. NO" "Do I like all aspects of where this is going?" No I know its a little self righteous isn't it? Well I'm sorry I fucking earned it. Nothing like a good sex pot picture to make yourself remember how beautiful you are..lol, ha ha that's me! Some time has passe...

2015 Reflection on 2014.  The Big Negative’s I moved last year after my ceiling caved in on xmas eve and my dog was diagnosed with cancer. I had a breakup at the same time, 3 hits in one.   Lots of change happened in my life last year. I went through a serious strike with the Vancouver School Board and found that my sources of security were depleted. It seemed that with almost zero income for 5 months the past financial issues came to my stress level at a head. The vet bills for my dog were running 600 a month.  I worked odd jobs that were like going backwards in life, this led to more stress and unhappiness. The residential care homes I had worked for so many years, and endured bulling and hard negative people-again was once in my face. I put my head down and just got threw as many hours as I could to just make it through. The residents of the group homes were the same, innocent, void of their surroundings as usual. I detached myself from a ...

Who would have thought at the age of 45, Id be training in a new career, have a roommate, open a company and be on a wind whirl of life? Well this happened. After the unsettling strike, cut in hours at the Vancouver School Board, I decided to take a hard look at my life in many areas.  Some decisions almost made me homeless and food less on many of the months..I have lost friends, distant myself from family and I can only say that in the long run my choices have been solid. The people that kept in contact and stuck around have known all along the choices I have had to make. For a better lack of word, they have shown up. So I thought Id share a bit, after not writing for sometime. I realized I really was fucked when the VSB went on strike and I would not qualify for Unemployment Insurance due to federal debt. My time was Sushi dog time, at 330 pm I'd be home, Giving my dog loves, taking her out, giving her medication, having a hour of cuddle time- then just before Halloween, Sus...