Lemon Meringue Pie & A Pychotherapist

So to set out on my grand adventure of being a suitcase boarder and 365 days rent free, I clearly had to unload some baggage, you cant take a entire home with you. A fresh start with old stuff in a storage locker is not a fresh start, its a occurrence of memories you sooner rather forget. We are the directors of our own life, and we can paint any picture we want...You just have to believe it. OK so, I really thought about my brand new bed, and well it is going into storage, I think I only had sex in it a few times, maybe twice. with the same person, who I still love and adore, so there are no bad memories with the bed, new linens will happen clearly afterward. I will need one dresser and I am taking my cherry mahogany pub table. The rest is bins of stuff that I have sorted and pillaged and really decided on what stayed and what went. My sewing studio I have lugged around for years was cut to a forth of what I had. I had two garage sales and made about 100 bucks, big whoop-u...

What does that mean??? Is it the vows you take on your wedding day? Is it something you say everyday when you hang up the phone, like a routine? A common curtsy when you go to bed? something you blurt out after hot sex? I really love you means; You look at each other when you kiss… You want to kiss forever.. When you have had a bad day, you asked the other person how their day is. I really love you, means you work hard to keep that passion alive…things in this world get comfortable and taken for granted. When you fight, you fight and make up and don't go to bed angry. I really love you means…I would give up my world for you, if I had too. I really love you means…you are my best friend and I correspond with you before anyone or anything else I really Love you means…I support your dreams, and you mine, even when we are apart And if you cant find your dream right now…you make a small one up… you build a Moroccan tent in the living room and feed each other..what e...

45 days till I'm a Suitcase Boarder, 365 Days Rent Free. Packing up and starting over this time, seems stressful..but way easier than any other time. One, I'm not heartbroken. Two, I don't feel attached to any of my stuff. Three I have major support this time. Four, I don't have to worry about any money- because it will be designated for someone else to look after. I just have to worry about work and wellness, sleep and good food. I applied to a over the top contract, that is 5 years with a full benefit package and travel. Probably out of my league, however the highlighted word in the job description stated " Full Training Provided" One of the things I do know now, is I can train in any field. Its funny how someone else can change your perspective in a moment. I saw a girlfriend about a month ago. she called and said I needed to come over. This was totally random. I was having a bad week. We had a in depth conversation about the power of emotion...

You have to be willing to lose everything to gain yourself. So..I will lose everything. Its not easy. Its not Drama. Its Re-birth. These are just materialistic things, and although it seems drastic. It is not. Removing it from my actual lodgings is a pain in the ass, waiting for it to be taken is also painstaking. I will be almost a backpacker. For one year. It is a choice. It is a wise choice. When I start over, it will be fresh. I have lost some of the most important things in my life from 2012 to 2014, this current matter is no big deal. I am following the footsteps of some very important people in my life. My closest friend in the lower main has led a great example on wellness fitness and health. My other friend in the US instills that happiness is still possible no matter what. My Terrace BBF instills Family values and care. With these 3 people in my life including my sons and my mother ( the comical creative goddess) I can scrape away all that I thought was important ...

After all my years of writing on dating in Vancouver, The dating site that is a eye sore and stays the same-POF- Plenty of Fuckers.  There will be no more updates in 2015 from this blogger in regards to POF. Not at least for 6 months anyway. I have continuously stayed on the horrible site all through my past two short lived relationships. I was writing some drafts, which I have promptly deleted. I became slightly more active on the site the last week due to being home sick with boredom. Superbowl week in the states, was a week of full physical training prior to the event, and then I left the states with a horrible sinus cold. This week another full training almost every day, home, running and gym, I find out the cold is in my chest. My trainer has left for South Carolina, and I feel lost with out her, I can't do what I was doing anyway with being sick, but even walking her dog would suffice because she lives quite close to where I live. During the past two weeks, I ...

It was a long battle with Sushi Gurl..and now she sleeps. RIP SUSHI GOLD Sushi was from a litter of 15, she didn't play like the others, in fact she just sat there. I think sushi was a quiet soul for most of her life. Sushi had terminal cancer which started in her tail. It was 2 years of surgeries and medications. Last year she developed a tumor the size of a golf ball, this split open in the middle of the night, we had to have her tail removed. The two years, she received a new bill on life and for the most part she went everywhere with me, Calgary, Terrace, Kamloops, Kelowna. I went to the vet to have her put down with a Dear friend who offered to assist me, I had not seen her for 20 years, After Sushi's tail removal her health went spiraling down, My friend felt Sushi had been threw enough and felt that because she was already diagnosed with cancer really, why should we be paying for more tests. Louise was right. However my vet refused to put her down,...

Here's a newsflash, Facebook is not real. It's for you to reconnect with family, friends, old high school mates and to report your live journal, sure if you want to occasionally. Facebook is the cause of most breakups, friendships and work relationships of today. It s hacked and prodded and looked into. It is simple put, absolute bullshit. However it is a good media tool, eye grabber, even planner and all out hilarious if you use it wisely. You have the strait posts which are the do gooders of what they have achieved and the latest status on there daily goals. You have the porn queens of Canada, potty mouths and the latest completions or awareness campaigns. Is your Facebook you- no it is not, you are the person that is typing the shit on there for sure, but this does not define who you are. When I go to work, I serve others and hold a professionalism of privacy and law abiding acts. When I work with children I teach and broaden there minds to be able to achieve anything ...

All the things I can’t , you can't or anyone else can't say aloud.  • Una persona • Your dick stunk last time I sucked it. So I stopped. • Thank you so, so much for allowing me to take 4 days off to help my family in crisis and then     decided to bring me in for a discipline meeting. I received you emails, phone calls and finally the   letter of dismissal.Quite frankly I do not have the time or energy to respond to your futile               attempts to bullying me. I hope you enjoyed your 4 month stay in France, with your fat ass,           your other managers have not had a vacation in 4 years and your clients do not have 1st quality equipment or necessities. I watch how you yell and scream to employees in front of staff and make well rounded people become bitter. Therefore  I am unavailable to your association, in the form of even a reply. maybe it has something to do with quality and ...

So its now February 2015 and I can't not think about the big 14. Recently Single, or maybe I always was in my subconscious mind. After 40, as I have said many times in my blogs, you tend to look at the whole picture. Well this year it was like I was taking a re-evaluation of my life, rather than looking specifically at someone I would date. In fact I had no desire to even date. However when you are thrown into a dating situation, sometimes you look at the horizon with that person and sometimes you look at yourself- recently mine was both. I asked some very important questions to myself." Do I have time for this? No", "Do I want to do my makeup and get all gussied up?. NO" "Do I like all aspects of where this is going?" No I know its a little self righteous isn't it? Well I'm sorry I fucking earned it. Nothing like a good sex pot picture to make yourself remember how beautiful you are..lol, ha ha that's me! Some time has passe...

2015 Reflection on 2014.  The Big Negative’s I moved last year after my ceiling caved in on xmas eve and my dog was diagnosed with cancer. I had a breakup at the same time, 3 hits in one.   Lots of change happened in my life last year. I went through a serious strike with the Vancouver School Board and found that my sources of security were depleted. It seemed that with almost zero income for 5 months the past financial issues came to my stress level at a head. The vet bills for my dog were running 600 a month.  I worked odd jobs that were like going backwards in life, this led to more stress and unhappiness. The residential care homes I had worked for so many years, and endured bulling and hard negative people-again was once in my face. I put my head down and just got threw as many hours as I could to just make it through. The residents of the group homes were the same, innocent, void of their surroundings as usual. I detached myself from a ...